An excerpt

Rebecca Solnit on what our dream homes reveal about our inner life

"There are times when I enjoy the weightlessness of traveling and wish to own nothing and afternoons when I want to claim every farmhouse I drive by as my own, especially those with porches and dormers, those spaces so elegantly negotiating inside and out, as though building itself could direct and support an ideal life, the life we dream of when we look at houses"

http://www.brainpickings.org/2014/11/11/rebecca-solnit-encyclopedia-of-trouble-and-spaciousness/ 

This year I started to run- a 10 km run, a 21 km run and finally a 12.5km run that I finished over the weekend. While my first two runs were exhilarating, on my third run I was deeply present to the moment in a different way- asking myself what am I wanting learn through this experience. This is what emerged for me...

On growing patience-

When I started to run, I already wanted to be at the finish line
But the truth was that I was at least 1.5 hrs  and 12.5 km away
I smiled to myself-
This is much like the other experiences in my life that I want to embody, in one go.
The thought made me restless, anxious, hopeless, bored...
Was I missing something here?

 As I ran through the bamboo grove
Runners in their journey going past, immersed in their pursuit
The only presence I became aware of is myself and my breath
The trail that went up and down, dancing with my body
The push and the pull as I counted every mile
Sweat tricking down my face, an ache somewhere in the recesses of my physical being
The beauty of a crisp winter morning and a foggy sun
Every milestone completed with pride and deep determination

Till at last I could hear the drums rolling at the finish line in the distance


I thought, through my growing excitement as I reached the end line
About  journeying-  from one place, time and  moment to another..
The journey... of a seed to a flower, of the earth going around the sun...
Never in a flash... always a transition...
Slow, painful, revealing, discovering, savouring, becoming, celebrating

How can I strengthen and cherish the patience in me
To stay with one moment a time...do what needs to be done now.. consistently... steadily...
How can I remind myself each day
That I am transforming , blossoming, being more of myself each day
How can I cherish and  celebrate my expanding boundaries each day

Crossing that finishing line
Was a gift I gave myself
The medal I got, had a message that made me smile-
'It was tough, I was tougher!'

The Call of the Wild Woman

She awakens... now...the Tiger!
Silent, fierce, nimble,
Sure of what she needs, she wants, she desires.

Moving towards living her brilliance-
By embracing it
Shedding her fears, one stealthy foot at a time.

Breathing, loving, acting...
Warrior of Darkness
Princess of Light
The Divine Being embracing all of herself.

Kahaniyo ka rangamanch