Tuesday, July 7, 2015

A reminder!





“I'd like to repeat the advice that I gave you before, in that I think you really should make a radical change in your lifestyle and begin to boldly do things which you may previously never have thought of doing, or been too hesitant to attempt. So many people live within unhappy circumstances and yet will not take the initiative to change their situation because they are conditioned to a life of security, conformity, and conservatism, all of which may appear to give one peace of mind, but in reality nothing is more damaging to the adventurous spirit within a man than a secure future. The very basic core of a man's living spirit is his passion for adventure. The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences, and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun. 

If you want to get more out of life, Ron, you must lose your inclination for monotonous security and adopt a helter-skelter style of life that will at first appear to you to be crazy. But once you become accustomed to such a life you will see its full meaning and its incredible beauty. And so, Ron, in short, get out of Salton City and hit the Road. I guarantee you will be very glad you did. But I fear that you will ignore my advice. You think that I am stubborn, but you are even more stubborn than me. You had a wonderful chance on your drive back to see one of the greatest sights on earth, the Grand Canyon, something every American should see at least once in his life. But for some reason incomprehensible to me you wanted nothing but to bolt for home as quickly as possible, right back to the same situation which you see day after day after day. I fear you will follow this same inclination in the future and thus fail to discover all the wonderful things that God has placed around us to discover. 

Don't settle down and sit in one place. Move around, be nomadic, make each day a new horizon. You are still going to live a long time, Ron, and it would be a shame if you did not take the opportunity to revolutionize your life and move into an entirely new realm of experience.

You are wrong if you think Joy emanates only or principally from human relationships. God has placed it all around us. It is in everything and anything we might experience. We just have to have the courage to turn against our habitual lifestyle and engage in unconventional living.

My point is that you do not need me or anyone else around to bring this new kind of light in your life. It is simply waiting out there for you to grasp it, and all you have to do is reach for it. The only person you are fighting is yourself and your stubbornness to engage in new circumstances.” 
― Jon KrakauerInto the Wild

Monday, March 30, 2015

The prayer

I found this poem in one of my journals. Written in November 2013. What a pleasant morning surprise to find a beautiful piece of writing, written by me, in another time.. revealing the beauty of my soul.



When I am performing I am in
When I am not, I want to run away!
When I am high, I am driven
When I am low, I hit a limbo
Not doing anything I just sit...
Getting murky like a pond.

I want to be the river flow
Gently break through the hard rocks
Big boulders that fill me with fear
An impossible desperation
Not letting me see what's beyond.

And I know
The only way to see what's beyond
Is to gently flow.
Flow towards it slowly
A drop at a time.
A trickle at a time.

I dream...
For beyond could lie the drop for a waterfall
Or a magnificent forest
Or a vast ocean that awaits me...

Can I  know what lies ahead I ask myself?
I can only intend to surge forward
No matter how long a time
Something is bound to unfold.
For I am the river
Unbridled creativity, vision and boundless intuition

Listen to the stillness, my beating heart
Listen to the stillness, follow the light within
Let your light shine for courage is destiny!





Sunday, March 29, 2015

Clarrisa pinkola




A Prayer
Refuse to fall down
If you cannot refuse to fall down,
refuse to stay down.
If you cannot refuse to stay down,
lift your heart toward heaven,
and like a hungry beggar, 
ask that it be filled. 
You may be pushed down.
You may be kept from rising.
But no one can keep you from lifting your heart
toward heaven
only you.
It is in the middle of misery
that so much becomes clear.
The one who says nothing good
came of this, 
is not yet listening.
” 
― Clarissa Pinkola EstésThe Faithful Gardener: A Wise Tale About That Which Can Never Die

Thursday, March 26, 2015

The past few mornings I have been waking up with a cluttered head, a panic in my breath as if i am on a rocking boat in the middle of a storm of sorts.. the storm is inside me.. its cloudy most days but the sun peeks through occasionally. even sitting down to listen to my breath has been a very challenging task. Today I feel rested calm, maybe the long walk and conversations cleared a block in me.. but this morning my thoughts felt like a song-

I choose not to know all the answers and glide,
Even though on some days it feels like I am falling.

I choose to focus only on the next step and edge a small distance ahead,
Even though on some days I get impatient and angry with myself.

I choose to love myself and honour my creativity,
 Even though on some days I am blinded to my own talents and brilliance.

I choose to hold my own hand, when I see none other,
Even though on some days the one person I want to escape is me.

I choose to breathe and hear the sounds of the waking birds each morning,
Even though on some days my head is a war - full of noise and muddle.

I choose to find the light within me, and look ahead,
Even though on somedays I want to give up and wallow in being a victim.

I choose to celebrate every spirit I encounter each day,
 Even though on some days I feel I am understood by no one, not even myself.

I choose to claim my power,
Each day, in reminding my self  that 'I choose'.


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Wednesday, November 12, 2014

An excerpt

Rebecca Solnit on what our dream homes reveal about our inner life

"There are times when I enjoy the weightlessness of traveling and wish to own nothing and afternoons when I want to claim every farmhouse I drive by as my own, especially those with porches and dormers, those spaces so elegantly negotiating inside and out, as though building itself could direct and support an ideal life, the life we dream of when we look at houses"

http://www.brainpickings.org/2014/11/11/rebecca-solnit-encyclopedia-of-trouble-and-spaciousness/ 

Monday, November 10, 2014


This year I started to run- a 10 km run, a 21 km run and finally a 12.5km run that I finished over the weekend. While my first two runs were exhilarating, on my third run I was deeply present to the moment in a different way- asking myself what am I wanting learn through this experience. This is what emerged for me...




On growing patience-

When I started to run, I already wanted to be at the finish line
But the truth was that I was at least 1.5 hrs  and 12.5 km away
I smiled to myself-
This is much like the other experiences in my life that I want to embody, in one go.
The thought made me restless, anxious, hopeless, bored...
Was I missing something here?

 As I ran through the bamboo grove
Runners in their journey going past, immersed in their pursuit
The only presence I became aware of is myself and my breath
The trail that went up and down, dancing with my body
The push and the pull as I counted every mile
Sweat tricking down my face, an ache somewhere in the recesses of my physical being
The beauty of a crisp winter morning and a foggy sun
Every milestone completed with pride and deep determination

Till at last I could hear the drums rolling at the finish line in the distance


I thought, through my growing excitement as I reached the end line
About  journeying-  from one place, time and  moment to another..
The journey... of a seed to a flower, of the earth going around the sun...
Never in a flash... always a transition...
Slow, painful, revealing, discovering, savouring, becoming, celebrating

How can I strengthen and cherish the patience in me
To stay with one moment a time...do what needs to be done now.. consistently... steadily...
How can I remind myself each day
That I am transforming , blossoming, being more of myself each day
How can I cherish and  celebrate my expanding boundaries each day

Crossing that finishing line
Was a gift I gave myself
The medal I got, had a message that made me smile-
'It was tough, I was tougher!'



The Call of the Wild Woman

She awakens... now...the Tiger!
Silent, fierce, nimble,
Sure of what she needs, she wants, she desires.

Moving towards living her brilliance-
By embracing it
Shedding her fears, one stealthy foot at a time.

Breathing, loving, acting...
Warrior of Darkness
Princess of Light
The Divine Being embracing all of herself.